thanks einstein!

to expand on my last post about amanda not helping to get me a job (instead i had to wait for philando's mom to refer me to sabathani), does she expect jobs to look at my resume and see that i went to courage kenny and just assume they can hire me?! i mentioned that i went to courage kenny at a few of my job interviews and the interviewer more or less disregarded it. i need WORK EXPERIENCE.. NOT rehabilitation which really doesn't pay attention to my abilities or potential to do things. HOW WOULD YOU FUCKIN LIKE TO BE FORCED TO GO SOMEWHERE THEY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOUR LACK OF ADVOCACY- SO THEY TOTALLY IGNORE YOUR CAPABILITIES AND POTENTIAL JUST TO GET A CLIENT WHO ACTUALLY TRIES THEIR HARDEST AND IS PERSISTENT? YOU WOULDN'T. IF YOU CLAIM "WELL I'M NOT HANDICAPPED LIKE YOU." WELL YOU CAN GET STRONGER IN REHABILITATION (IF YOU COULDN'T- WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT OF IT ANYWAY?!) AND THEY'RE ENABLED TO IGNORE MY PROGRESSION BY MY LACK OF ADVOCACY AND YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK BECAUSE IT'S NOT YOUR PROBLEM PERSONALLY. i hope this isn't what my grandma wished for me because then she clearly doesn't care for me. great. amanda has me questioning my grandma's motives for me and it makes me wonder if she even cared about me. i don't think she did if this is her intentions for me. thanks. i'll die a truly unhappy person who never got to live up to her potential and goals. i hope you feel good for yourself. you showed me just how uncaring, naive, and selfish you really are.